Wedding Planning isn't fun | Anxiety

November 20, 2013
So, with less than a year to go, I would have thought I would have been excited.

To be honest, I far more excited about Christmas.

Over the past few weeks, I've been having a lot of trouble with 'the wedding'

It all started with an argument from with family members after our 2 hour visit from the Vicar. I didn't realise the logistics that went into just the ceremony. I thought that was the easy part. Turn up. Say Vows. Have Photos. Go to Venue.  I don't mean to say blasé about it, of course, the ceremony is the most important part of the day, but I just thought it was the easy part. Apparently not.

Source (via Pinterest) -  comic strip Peanuts C.Schulz
The arguments, the trying to please everyone, the trying to express our wants and at the same time trying to avoid confrontation all got a bit too much.

I crumbled.

I began to be stressed about the smallest of details
in my everyday life. Really stressed. So I went to see the Doctor. Yes, it was that bad, I didn't know how to stop it.

Turns out, I have severe anxiety. It's getting a bit better now.

On the surface, you'll read this and probably wonder why or how a wedding, a year away could, be so stressful? Well, let me tell you that it's not the wedding as an event; it's everything that it drags along with it. The comments, the input, the arguments, the everything. Very quickly, our wedding has become everyone else’s and his or her past mistakes are seeping into the present.

Thankfully, the best thing about having a best friend getting married the month after me is great. I turned up at Sharlene's house, worn out and ready to tell all. I quickly found out that she has been having trouble too and feeling stressed and overwhelmed was a feeling we both shared. She is just coping better with it.


Well that's enough of the serious stuff, back to planning. My mind has been off it and the stress has caused us to number crunch and see where we can rein in the spiralling out of control budget. Seriously, £10,000 is too much for 1 day. We've been together 8 years; we live like a married couple anyway.

So, I have made some good progress and I'm currently putting together a mood board of my current selections. There are a good few posts to write too. Flowers, Bailing Bridesmaids, Budgeting reining, and a couple of little buys along the way.

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